forgive the photo of a photo- i don't have a scanner at home...unfortunately, the person i would most want to see at the reunion won't be there. the pic above is of myself and my other best friend chris hales. we are headed out for a spin in a 67 mustang and my husband says i look like i am drunk with joy over being with chris (they grew to be good friends early in our relationship and marriage). he won't be there because he passed away in 1997 and there is not a day (for real) that goes by that i don't think about him and miss him.
it is true that he's always with me because i carry him in my heart, but i would give anything to feel his arms hug me or to see his awesome smile or to hear him tell me a joke in person,not in my head.
i will tell you that i think he is my youngest son's guardian angel, as there have been several times that i have felt chris' protective presence at times when j.t was close to being injured. (jt was born days after chris passed away)
i have spent most of today looking at some old cards and letters from chris and they are a gift to me- reminding me how very proud he was of me and how much he cared about me.
the thing i admired most about chris, and you would have to have known him to know that this is the total, 100% truth, is his unfaltering kindness. you have never met anyone who acted so completely out of love and was so slow to anger. that is the part of him i try to instill in my children and the part of him i hold close to me.
i miss him terribly...
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